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Name: samantha
Birthday: 6/26/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: i like music....alot....i hate when people label me as emo or poser....thats judging me before i even get a chance to talk. i like singing and screaming. id like a chance to learn to skate and play guitar. i like to walka round and talk about completely pointless shit.....rainy days are ugly but pretty<3 and....to all my friends i love all of them and adopt them as my family.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message me
AIM:  washoutx49
MSN: washoutxx
Yahoo:  rgoddess787
Member Since:
9/11/2004
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| so yes as many days of pornos pass.....i find myself wondering why the hell do i have to decide my life at age 18. I mean come on...I just got out of the school for immature youth and can barely handle a bank account, on top of that my mom gave me the boot to get the hell out and all im doing now is smoking away cancer stix and sobbing to myself why my lifes so horrible(as any emo would). The only real way i can get a decent life is to sign my life away to the government so i can get my head blown off, hey why not? my lifes worthless anyways right?(guhhh emo). To all of you who dont know i shall be living in Lima but i am temporarily using sarah collins house because of complications in Lima......and Brittany, u fucking whore visit me for jesus fucking christs sake, i love u, u lesbian u, anyways peace to all and to all a good night
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| NOTHING....my mind can think of nothing.....my life is worthless and
will never amount to anything. how the hell did i go from wanting a
relationship being a pacifist to hostility and hormonal
curiosity......GAHHHH damn....so yeah the conclusion i came to was most
of the guys i know only want what supposedly every man wants, sex. I
need to stop drinking haha...maybe not. anyways, i need to get over my
childhod fears and face them like the day ahead of me. danny
sammons....to you now you are not perfect nor will you ever be in my
book so stop comparing and look at yourself before you accuse me of
such things, you were the one who always complained about your family
after i told you your family was awesome and everything so yeah fuck
you. i applaud april for being so upfront about her feelings, she loves
dan ok? so stop getting in her way, phil, and let her be. I hate so
much when people compare and contrast the difference in their close
minded atmosphere to other peoples feelings, people have different
emotions and they think differently, i am stubborn so if someone tries
to tell me oh hey sam look at my life ok? im awesome be like
me......FUCK YOU you call that support? no ones going to follow you
with that attitude you son of a bitch.anyways with that note im going
to depart sadly.....boo fucking hoo....peace out<3
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| alright so im totally sorta out of my house.....im living with a friend
and let me just say its amazing to get out of the house and its awesome
knowing your not alone in this world,i love u brit<3 its way better
over there cuz i can rid my mind of depression and joke around with my
bud, you see when i lived here i was always alone int his house which
depressed the living shit out of me plus my mom is dying to feed me
anti depressants so i said fuck you if i look at life from a different
perspective im going to and always will. The thing i dont wanna end up
are those dumb naive people who walk around obeying society and
thinking thats all there is to life....THERE IS NO POINT TO LIFE
DUMBASSES.....sooo stop acting like there is, they want u 2 be happy
and entertain you with their games so you wont end up like me.....ready
to kill myself and relieve my body of pointless shit....bc if everyone
did that *gasp* OH nooooo no society what r we to do......the
government would crash and no one would give a crap. anyways the whole
point of this entry as u might of caught on is to show u how utterly
stoked i am to be out of this pithole i put myself into.....or wait my
mom put me into. soooo yessss thank u for reading my emo
entries......and brittany.....wasselling all the way
biatchessss....!!!!<3 sam
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| sweetie just look at my eyes
and tell me why you dont understand my sentimental mind
i missed you when you told me you were busy
busy was maybe an excuse to ignore the absence of me
but now your leaving again and i feel like
maybe i should add you into my collage
the collage of faces haunting my dreams
forgotten, torn, yet together
here in this hellish confusion
tomorrow im not going to even think
about the way we used to talk and laugh
and feel like the day was never ending
pleading for time to stop in its place
so we could rid our minds of the reponsibilities
you were my excuse to keep me away from
something ive become without your voice
and eyes penetrating into my soul forever
the sun looks better right side up now
and im looking at things from the reality of society
using the sarcasm of laughing off secrets
the secrets of yesterday when i became someone else
pain hurts worse without an optimistic sense
to guide me and assure everything will fall into its place
as it should....now im just waiting for everything to fall out of place
and never come back leaving me in the asphalt of misery
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